Can't stop, Won't stop

"Don't let your heart be led by your eyes." I don't remember where I heard it exactly, I'm sure it's been said many times, in many different ways; but I like it. I'm doing my best; I'm rrrrrrrreally trying. Years and years of culture and wrong thinking to undo for sure. I just don't know where to begin sometimes. LUCKILY, I know someone who knows how to show me a little at a time so I don't freak out. The process of being changed for the better is quite tiresome, if you didn't know.

How convenient would it be if I could follow the things I saw instead of following what I know in my heart and mind to be true. This is a misleading and cruel world sometimes. I'm operating out of a more powerful mindset now though. I would like to think that if I wanted to be a good person than I would just be; but no. Its a decision that you make to give your life for others. Selfless. Think about, wholly and honestly selfless, so that you might lead a better life as well as those around you. A lot to ask and a little extreme but man…if you could impart that kind of giving to the world think about where we would be? What would our children have to look forward to? What peace and fulfillment we would have if we could just give a little more, have a little more faith? I know this might sound corny but if you think about it…where would we be if Thomas Edison, Leonardo Da Vinci, or Martin Luther King Jr., (yes, I put them all in the "dreamers" category) didn't try to obtain something that wasn't set before them already. They had dreams, they saw something bigger and better and went after it.

Yea, I could chill out and act like nothing around me matters. I could say that I don't care what kind of world my kids will live in when I'm gone but that's just not fact. I was born to care. I volunteer because I care. I do my best to help those in need because I care. I'm not sorry for that. I'm not sorry for the nights of selfishness I missed because I was doing good for someone or something else. Indifference is not in me. Hard it will be, but I got this. I'm going to walk the road less traveled by and I know that will make all the difference.