Beautiful Days

It was a beautiful day today, in more ways than one. Church was nice, it's my favorite place to be. What made it even better is that I didn't have to sit by myself again today. I noticed that it is more fun when you have someone with you that can identify with what's being said and call you out when needed. It was nice to go to lunch afterward and talk about the lesson/sermon. My friends and I then went out and shot some basketball an empty elementary school in my old neighborhood. The sun was bright but not too hot, the buds on the trees are starting to turn their crimson color. I was the first one out in a game of Horse. I whined and pouted like I usually do when I lose; I'll be the first to tell you that I'm a poor sport. That's only because making a big deal out of losing makes the rest of the game enjoyable for me :)

Then we went to my second favorite place…the grocery store. Triss and I filled the basket with all kinds of goodies to be had. Once home I started dinner. It was a good night I'm still enjoying it. A couple good movies, good food and laughs…clean sober fun (there is such a thing).

I am living and loving my life. I have made many mistakes and will make plenty more but I'm peaceful and content with what I have. I can't imaging living any other way. I love to have my friends close. Although I miss my family and hope one day we won't be so far apart, I'm working toward that day when they will be here, enjoying with me. Until that day I will do my best to remember there are always people worse off than me. There are plenty of things I didn't have before but have now. I can all ways do better but I will always be ok, even when the world around me seems to be crumbling and even if it really is. Life is what we make it.

I could complain about not having a cool car or a high paying job. I could beat myself up because I'm not in school and because I just can't be everywhere and everything that I and the people I love wish for me to be. My daily struggle is fighting the urge to live selfishly and pretend that my world is most important when I know that it's not. I know that those aren't the things that really matter.

We live in a society and culture that always has to put themselves first. I've learned that I don't have to worry about me because God has a plan. It's been working so far; I will do my best to not try and drive. I'm going to sit back and enjoy the ride.