It's Going to be Great!

Soooo my schedule is picking up. I picked up another job starting this week and another starting the beginning of next month. When I look at it on paper it looks awful rough but I’m learning a new technique. I’m redirecting my mind to forget about all the negatives I’ve learned to tell myself out of fear and laziness. I’m sticking with the phrase, “I can and it’s going to be great!”

 Do I sound like a fruit cake? Yes. Am I putting up a façade of false giddiness? Most cases, yes. Do I believe that in the end I will be happier, more experienced and better off? Absolutely. I’m faking it until I make it reality. Breaking the bad habits of constant exhaustion and the need for more “me” time. I’ve got me time, I just have to wake up a little earlier to experience it and am I really exhausted? No, I just like to sleep. I’ve got something to do every day and night of the week; choir, school, meditation, Zumba, work, work and work.  I get a few free afternoons and if I do what I’m supposed to when I’m supposed to, I can have all the hours after 9pm. Simple. The hard part will be building that discipline to where it was and beyond, without the feeling of agony and suffering. When I think about it... I’m doing exactly what I want to do.

I’M DOING EXACTLY WHAT I WANT TO DO!

Feels good to say that. I’ve got no one pushing me into a corner, no one telling me where I can’t and shant. I’ve got the world at my fingertips it just takes some effort to reach out and grab it.

I’ll be working on a few things over the next couple months. If you have ideas for other blogs or have topics worth discussing let me know.