I traded my cubical by the window for a shared office in the back of an African Art and Handcraft shop. I gave up my 401k for and uncertain future. I traded my health benefits for the mindset, "I will not get sick." Some assume I'm a little unstable mentally. Some others suggest that I've been taken advantage of or that I will soon learn from an honest mistake. There are people who think the shop can't possibly bring in enough revenue and that I have failed to make a worth while investment in my days to come. It's times like these that I am happy to know that there is only one thing that could hinder my quest to grow. Doubt.
I will not doubt myself and I ask that you doubt not. I assure you that our creator makes no mistakes and so, being connected with such a spirit, I will not either. That may sound arrogant but just follow me for a second. If my heart is pure. If my conscience intentions are to build up and not to tear down. If I am constantly working on finding the god in myself and in others, every move I make will be in that direction whether it looks that way from the outside or not.
I've been at my new job officially for three days, though I have been volunteering at the shop for months, and I love it. I love the big store windows and the constant need for attention from the patrons as well as the objects on the shelves. I love our cause and what the shops money goes to support. I'm financing after school programs and helping women in Africa start their own businesses. Who gets to say they do that for a living? I do. The hours are long and there is always work to be done. The slow days at work are no more and my days of not being held accountable are over. Every move I make will be watched. Everything I sell will be documented and accounted for as well as every deposit I make and every item I order. I will use this opportunity to grow into another phase of my spirituality and really learn to discipline myself when necessary. I will learn a deeper understanding of what it means to walk by faith and not by sight.
Send your energy and prayers my way… I'll need all the help I can get ;)
PEACE!
The Binaba Shop
